My comfort blanket......
The only time i feel comfortable or worthwhile is when i'm in nature with my camera in hand......
I'm a very socially awkward person, self conscious..... I either say the wrong thing or don't know what to say at all!
In the 'real' world no-one understands me.....i don't think i even understand myself!! I can well up with emotion and self loathing one minute and then feel better again the next.....
Flickr is an escape...... it's not real life........
I've been through some very tough experiences in my life, but i know everyone has their own hardships....maybe i'm just too weak to deal with them...
I've also many things to be truly grateful for, yet my messed up head leaves me unable to appreciate them properly.....
It's a bad day..... but tomorrow i will feel better again no doubt.......
So.... sorry for these words....... forgive me for writing them here, but it helps.... i have no-one else i can share them with....
Flickr and my flickr friends makes me feel more important than i actually am...... it makes me feel more loved than i deserve to be......
It seems i crave attention here, but that's because in the real world i hide away and fade into the background....... don't judge a book by it's cover......
I can only show my heart in my pictures.... i don't know any other way......
Thankyou for reading,
Carl xxxx
I'm a very socially awkward person, self conscious..... I either say the wrong thing or don't know what to say at all!
In the 'real' world no-one understands me.....i don't think i even understand myself!! I can well up with emotion and self loathing one minute and then feel better again the next.....
Flickr is an escape...... it's not real life........
I've been through some very tough experiences in my life, but i know everyone has their own hardships....maybe i'm just too weak to deal with them...
I've also many things to be truly grateful for, yet my messed up head leaves me unable to appreciate them properly.....
It's a bad day..... but tomorrow i will feel better again no doubt.......
So.... sorry for these words....... forgive me for writing them here, but it helps.... i have no-one else i can share them with....
Flickr and my flickr friends makes me feel more important than i actually am...... it makes me feel more loved than i deserve to be......
It seems i crave attention here, but that's because in the real world i hide away and fade into the background....... don't judge a book by it's cover......
I can only show my heart in my pictures.... i don't know any other way......
Thankyou for reading,
Carl xxxx
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